I've been away WAY too damn long. My (pretentious art school) finals came in while i was making some progress learning the ropes of LSDJ. Not to be over dramatic or anything, but those final weeks of my last college year were a gruesome battle of man ans brush versus empty canvas. it really set me straight on my career path to be a painter. That, and a long episode of piety at around the same time which turned me more Buddhist than you can possibly imagine. (I've been a Theravada Buddhist for a good while now, though). My gameboy was not touched since. Just a few days ago, I was struck with the sound of a sweet digital melody, and I was almost brought to tears. What had happened? shortly before the finals, I used to spend at least an hour a day scratching my head over LSDJ, getting uber excited when i got something half decent, and frustratingly scowling at the screen to see what i was doing wrong when it sounded like shit. Now, it's more like me giving a glance at my gameboy in the morning as it gathers dust.
Chipmusic is one f the most amazing kinds of music that I've heard in this life. I don't just want to hear it. i want it to come from me. But with my painting career picking up speed, school coming up in a few days (I'm an early bird for school classes), and religious practice, among all the other shit I do like applying for work, keeping the house clean, kung fu classes, painting, practicing the drawing, having a social life, etc. it's hard to divert ATTENTION to my gameboy. I know it sounds stupid. if you want to play music, just go ahead and do it, shithead. but it's like, when all of the other things are done, i go to my gameboy and look at it, remembering that i barely learned a few things and i still have to climb a big ass mountain of knowledge. after that, im pretty discouraged and decide to leave it for another day and the cycle repeats, where i feel worse and worse every day for not spending time coming back to this art form.
how do you guys do it? how do you go along with your careers, part time jobs, school, social life, parenting, relationships, religious practice (if any), and all that shit and still look at the gameboy and be able to say "FUCK YEAH let's do some chiptunes" rather than "I have other stuff to do"?, or how DID you do it, when you were just a beginner who didn't know jack? how did you overcome the challenge?