an0va wrote:SO, can you read?
oh god, this is a painful topic for me. brings back a ton of very embarrassing memories (at least to me).
i basically can't sightread at any useful level. i'm always shocked that in my various piano exams as a wee teen i scored anything above a 2/10 in the sightreading portions, because i'd take me forever to figure out the notes to play.
i'm honestly amazed at those who can sightread and play a written score in real time because i have no idea how someone can go from reading a clump of notes -> assigning notes to the right fingers -> getting those fingers above the right keys -> not leading said fingers to a dead end that makes it nearly impossible to play the next clump of notes.
anyway yeah, i can read, but really slowly. some days i feel i'd like to pursue a career in composing musical scores, but then i back out of that decision when i remember that committing notes to a musical staff is such a laborious and draining task for me. that's really the biggest barrier as far as that's concerned.
i'm fortunate to be a musician that can assimilate and produce music by ear & feel. i really don't think that will change, ever, unless i commit to, say, taking a course where i basically have to write traditional music for 24/7 for 4 months. (ugh)